Complete Victory Is Coming!

God spoke clearly to my heart the 1st Sunday of July about complete victory coming and overcoming the enemy coming in August (not just for myself but for others.) When you're a prayer intercessor you tend to feel the weight of burdens that other people carry, but how beautiful it is when victory does come and that release takes place as God elevates our walk with Him and moves us in a new and fresh direction; we walk together in victory and rejoice together as brothers and sisters in Christ. Though it's been a fight and exhausting... I trust Him and His word won't return unto thee void... I had no idea the spiritual battle I would enter a week later in July that I'm still fighting... BUT GOD... none of this is in vain... and I am going to SEE A VICTORY! Others are going to see a victory!! ♡♡♡ I know in my heart that God is elevating my walk with Him. And, sometimes that means fighting through things we didn't think we would have to... but the key is NOT QUITTING AND NOT LAYING DOWN IN DEFEAT!! I'm gonna SEE MY VICTORY, for the battle belongs to You Lord!! ♡

I Will Praise You in this Storm!

When you are in the middle of a spiritual storm... you have two options: 1. Lay down in defeat or 2. Get up and praise the Lord in the middle of it. I chose the latter. I woke up in need of His sweet peace again, still pushing through my problems. I had cried so much yesterday to where the corners of my eyes were still sore when I woke up this morning, yet Jesus is still right here beside me as He always will be. I started singing the chorus of the  song, "I will praise You in this storm", when I heard the Lord speak to my heart and say that it had been a while since I had sit at my keyboard and poured my heart out to Him in song... so, I got up out of my bed and made an effort to do what I knew I needed to do... having never played this song before on the keyboard, I felt the Holy Spirit guide my fingers and there was a sweet release throughout it. Once again, I feel God's reassurance & peace that this storm will soon be behind me, and I will again be stronger in the Lord walking into something new and fresh, as He gives me the ability to withstand the seasons of hard times and storms.

Lyrics:

V1 - I was sure by now... God, You would have reached down. And wiped my tears away. Stepped in and saved the day. And once again... I say, "Amen" and it's still raining. But as the thunder rolls, I barely hear Your whisper through the rain... "I'm with you"... And as Your mercy falls. I'll raise my hands and praise the God who gives, And takes away.

Chorus - And I'll praise You in this storm. And I will lift my hands. For You are who You are. No matter where I am. And every tear I've cried, You hold in Your hand. You never left my side. And though my heart is torn. I will praise You in this storm.

V2- I remember when I stumbled in the wind. You heard my cry, You raised me up again. But my strength is almost gone. How can I carry on... If I can't find You? But as the thunder rolls... I barely hear Your whisper through the rain, "I'm with you". And as Your mercy falls. I'll raise my hands and praise the God who gives, And takes away.

Chorus again.

link to me playing and singing this song...

Lord Help Me and Heal Me!

I know I'm able to pray for myself and I do, but I'm asking prayer warriors to bind together in prayer with me. I know this is a long post, but I desire to be transparent with you, because I know others are struggling and I don't want the enemy lying to you and telling you that you can't ask for prayer or share your heart, like he has lied to me. I've faced a life of sickness and surgeries. I'm approaching 40 procedures and surgeries, not counting all of the in office ones I've had and 11 hospitalizations outside of that. Even when I tried not to turn to the Lord for help and healing, He always found a way to get me back to where I needed to be. I've turned to Jesus in the good times, and I've turned to Him in the bad times. He has continued to bring me through it all. Most of it is a blur to me now, but the one thing I do know for sure is that if it wasn't for God I wouldn't still be here. I pour my heart out to Him once more for peace and strength. There have been so many conditions, even incurable diseases, that I've had where God has supernaturally healed me instantly, or He has healed me over time. So, there's no doubt in my mind what He can do! It's been something unexpected everyday this week. I know I'm under spiritual attack, and I know that there is a spirit of oppression that is weighing heavily in this hour. This spirit will try to come and choke the life out of you, and it is overwhelming at times to where it takes my breath... but it's my responsibility to keep praying and pressing through it, so that God can remove that spirit. God reminded me this morning, at church, that "He was in my midst to remove the spirit of oppression. He was in my midst to come unto Him as I am weary and heavy laden so that He can give me rest. He reminded me once again that He's the same Jehovah Rapha, the God Who Heals and the same Jehovah Shalom, the God of Peace, that He was all the other times in my life." 

For 15 years now, I've battled an incurable inner ear disease called Meniere's Disease. People do not see all the bad days I've spent bed ridden, unable to drive, or fully dependent on others to take care of me, except family and close friends... nor do they see all the painful surgeries and recoveries, all the steroids taken by mouth or injections and how it has effected my body and health negatively... the depression and helplessness it brings when it's out of remission... the 3 ear shunts I've had surgically placed over 9 years, when one shunt should have lasted the 10+ years. The ear tube I also need, along with the shunt, to keep me from having dizziness and hearing loss in that ear, the in office treatments I need to have medicine run down in my ear that leaves me sick for days, the painful growth behind my ear (from being cut so many times), that keeps growing back but can no longer be removed because we've exhausted all options and none of them have worked. This is just one of several conditions I fight through. It's physically and mentally exhausting at times. Oh, but God sees all and knows all. I don't share all of this for pity or attention. I just share this today with a heavy heart; someone in need of God's healing once more and His perfect peace. I'm like the woman with the issue in the Bible, but instead of 12 long years, it been 15 long years of suffering with this incurable ear disease, as I continue to pray and believe for my miracle. I've endured random issues happening to my body that needed immediate surgery that left doctors puzzled with no explanation. Some of the things that I've had could have ended in death, but God stepped in. 

I know He continually has a call on my life, and I've already got to experience so much in ministry and see Him move and use me in ways I never thought possible for His glory. He always has His hand on my life, and I know He always will. I know I'm a walking testimony and miracle. Now, my ear tube has fell out again. I go Tuesday to get another one put in. Something that may sound simple to others is what I need right now, as I continue to call upon God for healing. An ear tube in and working means a better quality of life for me. And then the following week I go for heart tests and the results the same week. I need to be cleared, not just for hereditary reasons that they're checking, but for surgery that I'm scheduled to have on August 25th for another painful condition I have been dealing with for a year. God has graciously given me the strength to endure it as I've prayed for healing. I went to have surgery July 22nd for it, and the doctor discovered it was a different problem that he couldn't handle so he referred me to another surgeon. I went to the consultation appt. last week. This surgeon said it was going to be a painful and tough recovery especially the first 2 weeks and that it would take about 4-6 weeks to fully recovery. On top of that I have two other family members that are facing serious surgeries in the next month or so. To say I'm overwhelmed is an understatement. But again, I also know that God desires to lift the spirit of oppression off me. He desires to lift the burden off me. He desires for me to walk in complete victory. 

I know that His promise is coming. I just wait upon Him. I believe that He can heal me even now. He is the same God now that I've been walking with since I was a child. I need Him to help me keep handling things one day at time. God spoke to my heart on July 4th, at church, about complete victory and overcoming the enemy coming in August, not just for myself, but for my blood family and church family. His word will not return unto thee void. If I have to lay or sit down to praise the Lord for a period of time, instead of standing that is what I will do. The enemy will not silence my praise, because that is what I'm called to do: praise my way through it all. In the meantime, I sit back and wait for God to do the impossible. I continue to walk in faith and not fear... but I'm exhausted with the familiar in my life, the 37 years of sicknesses, struggles, and surgeries. I held on to every word of the timely message preached at church this morning. God is going to do a new thing in us (me). A fresh fire. A fresh praise. A fresh healing. A fresh word. A fresh anointing. A fresh outlook. God is ready to move. We (I) just have to reach out, accept, and receive the new thing He desires to do in us, for His glory and purpose. Lord help me and heal me!! <3

One Day At A Time!

Lately, I have been overwhelmed because my mind constantly goes to what's on the calendar for August, and what I'm scheduled to face throughout this month and even next month; with myself and my family. My mind goes to worry and anxiety which only brings a heaviness over me. I know how important it is to take things one day at a time, but I'm human so the Lord helps me daily to get my mind focused back to where it needs to be... and that's with His help and strength, only getting through this day without being consumed of thoughts on the next day or even next week's events. I know many are probably worried on what may be to come in this country. **But, I think of the song, "Lord for my sake, teach me to take, one day at a time... One day at a time sweet Jesus, that’s all I’m asking from You". **A lot of stress is caused by unfounded or maybe even real fears and anxieties that grip our hearts. That is possibly why the Lord Jesus said in Matthew 6:34 “Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own”. **In this season of life we (I) need to truly learn to live “one day at a time”, completely trusting our Lord Jesus Christ. When I focus only on the day, and not what's to come (because it may not ever come), I'm reminded of God being in complete control; it's there where I am assured of His providence, protection & provision. ♡