I refuse to allow my mind to wander to anything bad, because Jesus could come any day now! Though I don't think I'll ever know this side of glory why I was dealt the cards of continuous health issues I know this world is not my home, and all of this is only temporary! I'm 41 years old and God has mercifully brought me through 41 (yes it continues to catch up with my age) surgeries and procedures, plus another dozen hospitalizations outside of that. Most of it remains a blur to me now. I just know God brought me through it all, because of faithful prayer warriors that have been in my life (many have now gone on to be with the Lord). I find relief a short while, and it seems something is always right around the corner. But as many surgeries as I have had, there have been just as many that God has stepped in and stopped. I've been healed of other conditions and diseases. I've received God's healing power instantly and overtime. I'm human so I have my moments of questions and doubts and discouragements and despairs and why me? Oh but, God set me apart and despite the struggles in my life I am a testimony to the fact that God still heals, delivers, and sets free! God has poured His favor, anointing, and blessings into my life in ways I never thought possible! I want to do my best to be an encouragement for Him, because through it all GOD HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME! At 41 years old, and a saved child of God for 28 years, I continue to remind myself of just how faithful God has been and continues to be to me. I continue to understand the peace and strength He gave me to get through it all, in spite of myself. It is a sustaining and perfect peace that passes all understanding. Sometimes in the middle of crying out for my healing, I remember God's ways and thoughts are not mine and much higher than mine. If it's my job to remind others to keep perserving and praising God through it all, Lord help me to keep going on! In the exhaustion and through the tears, God has reminded me to remind you that even when we don't get the answer we want at the time we want it.... He is still working things out on our behalf ONE STEP AT A TIME to give us what we need!
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In the midst of troubling times it’s easy to give up on your faith. It’s easy to praise God when everything is good in our lives … we have a good job, great friends/relationships and everything seems like it’s falling into place. We are so happy. We say “Thank you God for everything and my awesome life!” That’s easy to do. But, what about giving God glory through pain, struggle, betrayal, disease and sickness? This is something I’m still learning myself… To give Him glory when the pieces just don’t fit quite yet! Never doubt the love and the goodness of God to you. He doesn’t promise a storm free life, but He does promise to be the anchor in the storm so that you will not be overcome! Trust Him daily. Trust Him hourly. Trust Him moment by moment. His resources will not only get you through, but you will truly grow to experience Him as the source of hope overflowing “by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
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