Miserable Meltdowns!

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Five years ago, the Lord begin taking me through a journey of trying to learn how to overcome being blindsided by the enemy. A powerful word would come through this along with much hurt and the lowest point in my walk with Christ... but in the end joy, relief, and deliverance. Also, through this came this song that has since been right there to pull me through every dark time in my life. When I am going through situations behind closed doors that no one knows about it, those MISERABLE MELTDOWNS (I know I'm not the only one who experiences these), those questions that outweigh answers, comes this song again in the middle of a challenging few weeks. We don't give ourselves the same grace that God does in our human moments. The flesh stinks sometimes... but even at almost 36 years old I'm still learning that it's okay to be emotional, it's okay to be angry without sinning, it's okay to stand up for yourself in a stern voice... all of those things that other people will point at you and say in those ugly moments that I simply call life, "I thought you were a better Christian than that"! That has to be one of my most hated quoted sentences ever! I mean really, that says to the Christian world that you have to be perfect in every waking moment of your walk with Christ! Since coming home from my cruise, God has once again put me on this journey of learning how to walk on through with victory during those "blindsided by the enemy moments", and I shake my fists and cry not liking it one bit yet knowing it is exactly what I need to keep growing and moving forward in Christ. I mean literally since being caught off guard with things that happened on the cruise, I came home to physical sickness that I'm just getting over a week later, a 48 hour major bank issue that was a system error, being stood up for an important meeting, an unpleasant realization that something I worked hard for may not come to past, being forced to handle a situation that I shouldn't have been asked nor required to handle, starting the grieving process of something that I had suppressed deep inside of me, and fighting through fear and anxiety of facing my 36th surgery procedure with non cancer radiation treatments to follow, in just a couple of weeks... yet through all of this God still shows up. Our cruise group was a light to some employees on that cruise ship and we didn't lose our testimony nor compromise our faith/beliefs in the middle of a toxic atmosphere and the Lord allowed us to have some enjoyable experiences while keeping His hand of protection on us. The Lord is healing me once again from a simple illness that others die from in other countries, all the money was put back in my checking account plus I received an extra $55 this week from others I wasn't expecting, that same day I was stood up for a meeting a person came to my house and took care of the situation, a best friend during a late night drive and sacrificing her sleep time, talked me through that goal that may not come to past and how God still worked it out for His glory, and I just sucked it up and handled that situation I didn't want to, yet I stood my ground and stood up for myself too, and didn't suppress my feelings... and God has once again stirred that word back up in my spirit about NOT being overcome with defeat when blindsided by the enemy... while all of this is going one, I was asked to teach a class next week and well let's just say I know what direction I'm going in regarding what I'm teaching about. God is going to use you whether you have nasty life moments or not, whether you have fleshly moments or not, whether you have man's validation or not, whether you took a different journey someone thinks you shouldn't have took or not. Listen you may be walking with a limp, you may have to crawl past that finish line, you may have to scream and cry your way through that unpleasant situation and feeling; but in the end you're gonna make it through, you're gonna be okay during those blindside moments, you're gonna get back to your moments of joy and celebration, you're gonna realize it's okay to NOT be okay and have it all together. God made a special promise to You AND He won't leave you there!

Below is my favorite version of this song, because the anointing is so strong, and they also sing the chorus of "Through the Fire" with it!

https://youtu.be/HbQsHyqpzEA

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