Stay in your pea patch and fight!

A long but necessary post: Two years ago, I came home from an evening church service in June 2015, and God immediately dropped a short word into my spirit. A word that God would build upon, as He sent me into a two year growth that "almost" did me in, key word "almost". In the middle of receiving spiritual gifts and being on what seemed a spiritual high that summer as I taught an 8 week study at church Wed. nights on the Holy Spirit, I was blindsided by the enemy and had no idea what was coming my way. God literally knocked me off my feet the end of August that year, that left me in a boot and physical therapy for a 6 mth period. My left leg will never be the same from that fall. I still find myself waking up to a limp the next day, but I would rather limp into Heaven than not walk in at all. I'm not ashamed to say, God had to shape me up. It was a painful process, that left me broken in it seemed a million pieces, but pruning hurts when the bad fruit has to be cut away. There were still vital things I needed to learn and be delivered from so that I could continue to grow spritually, thus beginning this 2 year growth journey. I didn't realize the devil was setting me to up to try, key word "try" to strip me of my character, my anointing, my peace, my joy, my hope, my armor bearers, etc. I had no idea that thru this I would blindly walk into a haughty spirit mentality as well, unknowingly driving away people in my life that meant a lot to me because the flesh was not crucified on a daily basis... I continued to fight my way thru it, sometimes seemingly crawling with no desire to keep going, I pulled away from ministry and my church family, I shut myself out, I cried til it seemed I couldn't cry anymore, I griped/complained, moped/whined, and went thru the motions week after week at church not feeling much of anything, sometimes I hid it well. I was a depressed mess, and it seemed that the enemy had indeed destroyed me and shut my mouth from ever speaking God's truth again. My family, both blood and church, and my pastor hung in there with me when they didn't have to. However, something rather someONE kept urging me to keep going, and I didn't quit. You may seem me struggle, but you won't see me quit. I kept praying, kept fighting, kept praising, kept growing, kept being delivered as I will be 'til I make it to Heaven. In just the last few months of 2017, God has done a great work of restoration and spritual healing in my life. I have truly learned to love, forgive, apologize when I am wrong with the intention to NOT make that mistake again, and be tough skinned for the cause of Christ; to let go and move forward to continue the call of ministry God has placed on my life. The growth I've received was worth every difficult step that I walked thru these last 2 years. The boldness, wisdom, and discernment I continue to receive is what I need to keep fighting and minister in these last days. I thought the opportunity had passed me by to share this message with my church family, but God's timing is never early or late, it's always right on time. God said that I had to 'truly live it before I could give it'. In June 2017, I delivered this message at my home church!

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