Worship is a Lifestyle!

"I love to watch you worship. It blesses me". I've been told this often and sometimes I've have struggled with it, because I'm thinking Lord it isn't about me, it's all about You. I don't want them looking at me. I want them to focus on You. Then a dear friend sends me this message, as we were discussing my struggle. "Try to think of it this way if you can: it’s not that they watch you like a tv show or a concert. Seeing someone who worships authentically is inspirational. It is a beautiful thing to see someone able to be vulnerable in worship because it is so rare. People enjoy seeing you worship because they can see the love for the Lord emanating from you, and they know the Lord is happy." 

Wow! I don't think about that, but it truly touched and blessed my heart. I understand it now from a different perspective. I praise the Lord for giving my friend the words to say. The Lord desires me to remember this, "keep letting them see Me through you." 

Lord, I just want to praise You and sing to You, because You deserve it. You deserve my most highest praise. My exuberant praise. My sincere praise. My heartfelt praise. You've been too good to me for me to sit down and be quiet. Even when the enemy fights me and tries to sit me down and shut me up, Lord it's my responsibility to get back up and worship You in both spirit and truth. When I'm happy, let me worship. When I'm sad, let me worship. When I'm struggling, let me worship. When I'm succeeding, let me worship. When I'm well, let me worship. When I'm burdened, let me worship. When I'm burdened and in the middle of a trial, let me worship. Because, worship isn't a one day a week thing for me. It's my lifestyle. It's my being. It's what helps me push through every adversity and spiritual attack that comes my way. Lord let them see You through me. Worship is truly what gets me through! ♡ I LOVE YOU LORD, AND I LIFT MY VOICE, TO WORSHIP YOU, OH MY SOUL REJOICE. TAKE JOY MY KING, IN WHAT YOU HEAR. MAY IT BE A SWEET, SWEET SOUND IN YOUR EAR!

In This Hour!

Sometimes when you can't speak out your prayers... you write what you're feeling in your heart... this poured out of my soul tonight during mid week church service (Bible Study). If you're in this hour of struggle, let this be your prayer too. Remind yourself of who God is in this hour.

"In this hour" - In this hour of feeling the troubled waters moving, let me feel Your Holy Spirit moving. In this hour of heaviness, put Your breath in my lungs. In this hour of uncertainty, show me Your wisdom and understanding. In this hour of feeling stress and anxiety, help me feel Your perfect peace. In this hour of sickness, help me receive Your healing. In this hour of weakness, help me receive Your strength. In this hour of feeling alone, send me your comfort. In this hour of disbelief, help me receive Your truth. In this hour of feeling hopelessness, help me feel Your hope. In this hour of feeling anger, help me receive Your calmness. In this hour of distractions, help me receive Your focus. In this hour of feeling numb, remind me of who I am in You. In this hour of the enemy making me feel isolated, help me remember that You will never leave me nor forsake me. In this hour of feeling discouraged, send me Your encouragement. In this hour of attacks, send me Your shield. In this hour of feeling out of control, remind me God that You are in complete control. ♡

Surrender the Battle to God!

My family has been through a lot this year regarding health problems, myself included. We chose to keep some of it off social media for privacy reasons, and as we unexpectedly face something else yet again tonight, all I can think is this... God, You are not taken by surprise regarding any of this. And, I know there must be other families fighting ongoing battles this year, and I want to do my best to encourage others. Then came this word. The battle you (we) are facing is not yours (ours), but God’s. If you're a child of His, you can be certain that satan will “rage against you.” In 2nd Chronicles Chapter 20, a great multitude came against God’s people. King Jehoshaphat & his people set their hearts to seek the Lord and to fast. The king cried out to God a prayer that most of us have prayed at times which would be, Lord I am in a battle right now and don't know what to do but my eyes are on You. I look to You for answers. *“We have no might against these that come against us, neither do we know what to do; but our eyes are upon You” (20:12). “The Spirit of God came in the midst of the congregation… saying, Be not afraid nor dismayed… for the battle is not yours, but God’s." (20:14-15). 

We are human, so we are kidding ourselves if we think we can face it all without panicking. When it comes to our family hurting and facing sickness and surgeries, we will feel the discouragement and fear. We will become burdened. But, I have realized that this battle is beyond my control. I must submit all of it into God's hands. We have to surrender it all to Him, when we pray. 

I heard the Lord saying, "The enemy is attacking with permission to test your faith. The faith of others will be strengthened. The relationship that you have with others will grow deeper and stronger, even our relationship saith the Lord. I am calling you to come deeper with Me and to go higher with Me. Know the enemy is laughing because he thinks you will fail. Do not stand for the attacks of the evil one, but stand for what I have trained you to do and who I have trained you to be in Me." 

I was then reminded of how God has been telling me over and over again to contend, to strive, to fight, to stand, and to remain focused on Him in the middle of these battles.

A Seasonal Song!

Life can be an ongoing battle more times than not, but I've learned to shift my focus to the goodness of God through the moments of despair. It's an ongoing battle with my health... as soon as I've got over one thing, something else comes from around the corner... but here is the important point to remember, God remains faithful to bring me through every illness and situation, and I've pushed through and chose victory over defeat. I may have been crawling at times, but I made it. This song has been my anthem this year, "Battle Belongs" by Phil Wickman: {"When all I see is the battle, You see my victory, When all I see is the mountain, You see a mountain moved, And as I walk through the shadow, Your love surrounds me, There’s nothing to fear now, For I am safe with You... So when I fight, I’ll fight on my knees, With my hands lifted high, Oh God the battle belongs to You, And every fear I lay at Your feet, I’ll sing through the night, Oh God the battle belongs to You. Almighty Fortress, You go before us, Nothing can stand against the power of our God, You shine in the shadow, You win every battle, Nothing can stand against the power of our God"}... It's been one of those weeks when I've been under attack and in great need of God's perfect peace. I was scheduled for an outpatient procedure today, and I was still feeling that anxiety and stress of uncertainty. But God stepped in... I was in the prep room getting my IV, and I immediately recognized the nurse had a Christian music station playing... the very last song I heard before they took me to the procedure room was "Battle Belongs" on the radio. I immediately felt relief and shifed all of the anxiety and worry to God ...and to quote the anesthesiologist, "she went to sleep laughing through her oxygen mask". I just remember feeling so much joy, and I've continued to feel it. I didn't know what was coming, but God was faithful enough to make sure I had peace before knowing when I woke up. The doctor wasn't able to do what needed to be done, because it is a different issue than what we originally thought so everything is being turned over to another surgeon where a procedure will be scheduled at a later time... so I came home with the same issue and pain that I've had 10 months now, but God is in control and I haven't fretted about it. I've kept praising Him for the strength He's given to me since last Fall to continue enduring this, all the medicines tried and nothing working... I've still trusted God every step of the way. I know this will soon be behind me, and I'll be an even stronger person for having gone through it. God has the ability to heal this issue too; I don't doubt that one bit. With that being said, if you can't get past something, find you a song for your season of life and lean on it. Listen to it until you wear it out. It hasn't always been easy, but God has been faithful to give me a brand new song through each season I've gone through to help keep me going. It may sound simple to some, but believe me it works, and God will make sure you hear that song at the exact moment you need it most! ♡

A Spiritual Attack Purpose!

I have talked and prayed with many believers in Christ over the years, who want to grow in their walk, be used of God, and see Him move in their life in a miraculous way... but yet they don't know and understand the process it takes to see these things come to pass. Also, myself included, because I don't post about anything God hasn't already dealt with me about, they want these things to happen without making a move or putting any effort into it... no prayer life, no church attendance, no reading and studying the Bible, no time of worship, no time with God... it's just a "sit back, do nothing, and receive" mentality. I believe you get out of your relationship with God, what you put into it. So when a spiritual attack does come their way, they are blindsided and don't know what to do or how to handle it. Let me be the first to tell you that those attacks are very real, but if you want out of it and you truly want to grow and be used (or keep being used of God) you've got to put forth some effort during that attack. You've got to suit up in the full armor of God and fight. I've learned there is a spiritual purpose behind those attacks. They aren't happening for no reason. God is molding you, shaping you, and preparing you for what's to come... or maybe even fully ridding you of some things you only thought you had released and let go of. I'm in the middle of an attack right now, but I've went into battle mode this week... I've fell asleep with praise music on or quoting scripture, my Bible has stayed by my head, I've wept bitterly, and I've fasted some meals. I've literally had to pray the enemy out of my room in the middle of heart palpitations and feeling dizzy and faint. See, when satan thought he was going to torment my mind in the middle of darkness, I turned my lamp on and talked to God... I was able to fall asleep in the light. Even during restless days or nights and the enemy trying to put fear on me about dying, I've felt the Holy Spirit hovering over me. I've listened to songs about "peace" over and over. I've got up and did my best to get my mind on something else, because if you lay down and wallow in it... only thoughts of doubt, despair, defeat, and discouragement will come. It's not been easy, but when you push through and finally see the victory on the other side of the attack... the victory that I know is soon coming... you realize what God can do and why He allowed it. The enemy doesn't want you growing in the Lord or happy, and he sure doesn't want you to be used of God... so he slips in and knocks you off your feet, without warning, hoping you won't get back up... but God... you get back up and you take him to the Word of God. “Our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” (Ephesians 6:12) Plant your feet and stand your ground... help is on the way! We need others praying for us, but we have to learn to pray for ourselves. We have to fight the good fight of faith daily. I don't know who this is for, besides me, but the Lord is reminding you to get up and keep fighting. There is spiritual purpose behind the attack.

Peace Of God Cover Me!

"Peace of God cover me... cover me when I am hurting, cover me when I'm not strong, cover me when I am going through the storm... let the peace that passes all I understand, cover me." 

As I was singing this and praying for His perfect peace over my mind tonight and over other situations, I was reminded of this... whether you have lived for Christ almost 25 years like me, or more or less time... we are still human and have those moments that shake us to the very core when all we can do is seem to be overwhelmed with emotion and gripped with fear. No matter how strong you may be in the Lord, moments of uncertainty will come your way. Then, I tend to allow the enemy to beat me up when I'm down instead of beating him up. As quickly as the enemy will place an attack over our mind, we have to be just as quick to rebuke him and stomp him back down under our feet where he belongs. We have to beat him at his own game and get our mind focused back where it needs to be. Sometimes it's easier said than done. The enemy wants access to your mind, because he knows that's the gateway to your heart and soul. 

But then God starts to calm my troubled soul and gives me this beautiful word. "Just understand that you're mine. I hold you in the hallow of my hand. If you will stay there, there's no power that will defeat you, because I'm the Lord and I have all power in Heaven and earth. That which you have ask me for I have heard you already. I have already provided the answer. My hand and my arm will reach down where you are and will pull everything into order for I am the Lord your God, and I am in complete control." 

If you're struggling with an attack over your mind and need God's perfect peace, just know I understand and you're in my prayers. I mean that.

Spirit Of Doubt!

As I was leaving to get in my car, after church, the Holy Spirit spoke this to my heart. There is a spirit of doubt roaming this nation, in more churches (hearts and minds of believers) than we would probably think. All the Lord asks of His children is to "come unto Me, all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest." He is Jehovah Rapha, the God who healeth thee. He is Jehovah Shalom, the God of peace. He can heal you where you are at today and set you free; physically, mentally, emotionally, and financially. He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly more than you could ever ask or think of. Those are not my words, that's scripture. See Ephesians 3:20. My spirit is heavy for those who doubt what God can do, as I've been there more than once in my walk with God, but He has the power and ability to break those chains of doubt off you this day. He can do it wherever you're at; right there in your home. I'm praying for your deliverance if you're bound by those chains of doubt. God loves and cares about you; don't allow the enemy to keep lying to you and keep you in bondage. All you have to do is ask and believe.

In Christ,

Kimmy ♡

Have Faith!

I've been given many prayer cloths over my life, especially going through over 30 surgeries + over 10 hospitalizations outside of that thus far. Many of those cloths have got lost or were passed on to others. But I've held on to this one for probably 20 years. My MoMo would stand in prayer, for me, at church and bring me the prayer cloth(s) when I was facing another surgery or in the hospital for an illness. This prayer cloth has been with me through a lot and has been anointed with oil over and over again. Its sweet fragrance fills my Bible, when I open it up to read and study. I see the yellow stains from the anointing oil, the tear stains, etc. I've used it many times to pray over people too. I know it isn't the cloth that does the healing, it is the Great Physician, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, but it is the faith behind it. I'm thankful for God's continued healing over my life and how far He's brought me. I want that to always reflect in my praise to Him. Tonight, I opened my Bible with a heavy heart, and was reminded of this cloth. I was reminded of the faith in God my late grandmother had, when she stood in prayer for me or another family member; that faith that was taught to me and I carry so deeply in my heart and soul. As I continue to pray over many needs, I am thankful for Clanton Church of God. How precious souls of this church prayed for me, before I ever attended church there myself! Some who've gone on to be with the Lord. I know God has faithfully heard and answered many prayers of healing over the years. I don't know what the future holds, but I need my church family to keep moving forward. It helps me continue to grow in the Lord. It helps me have support and prayer from others in like mindness. My brothers and sisters in Christ, who will rally around me in prayer and support, when times are good and when they are bad. I was reminded of how I truly see the action behind the verse, Galatians 6:2 "Bear ye one another's burdens", when I think about my church family. Bearing another's burden does not mean taking away their pain. It simply means to hold them up and point them to Christ, to help pray them through, and to stomp the devil down together, where he belongs. I don't know how people make it without God and a supportive church family. I don't want to take any opportunity for granted, I have, to step foot in a church service and give the Lord the glory and praise He rightly deserves. 2020 was a tough year regarding that, and I need and pray for things to remain normal. I leave you with this: Have faith. Keep the faith. Everytime I look at this prayer cloth, I'm reminded of God's faithfulness and just how good He is! He loves and cares about you too; all of your needs and burdens... just take them to the Lord in prayer! He's your burden bearer! ♡

The Well!

During both sermons today at church, 2 points stuck out to me... A.M. #1 no weapon formed against us shall prosper (it won't work) and P.M. #2 if you leave church with a Jesus fix, without allowing Jesus to truly fix you then you're just spinning your wheels. I heard the Lord remind me this morning that He is still the God who heals thee. He reminded me how His word says that He has heard your prayers, seen your tears, and He will heal you. I become so burdened, and my heart was heavy because I remember those years when I would leave church with just my Jesus fix... "I'd cry and shout, but I was leaving unchanged and not fully delivered". I'm so thankful I decided to let Jesus fix me one day, but my heart remains burdened for those who still don't want to truly change. Tonight, "well", as in a water well, was mentioned several times during service. God gave me a vision of people who are seeking deliverance but have yet to receive it. People seeking what they need from God, yet in the same rut he/she have been in for years. People seeking to be filled with the Holy Ghost and to truly be set free. I saw the clearest vision of a "stopped up" well, with a stopper, like you would see in a sink or bathtub. When people are on the verge of a breakthrough that stopper begins being pushed up in order to be removed so God's blessings and victory, deliverance and healing can freely flow. But right at the point of the stopper being removed, here comes satan with his lies, guilt, condemnation, temptations, and anything else he can use to push the stopper back down and you're back to the same old stopped up well. I went through that cycle for years, but praise God my well ain't stopped up anymore. It overflows (even when times get hard and trials come)... with God's love, joy, peace, victory, healing, deliverance, and anointing. See, satan and his evil forces will attempt to stop up the well that sustain our spiritual life and health. Refuse to let the enemy keep your well stopped up; let that stopper be fully removed in Jesus' name! That's my prayer!

In Christ,

Kimmy♡

Fully Known... Fully Loved!

This card was more than just someone's obedience... this card stopped the enemy in his tracks when he tried to devise another one of his crazy plans last Wednesday night. I went to bed that night rather discouraged and in tears, even though I knew God was going to handle it all; as I rebuked and pushed through the enemy's lies and schemes. The next day, this card comes in the mail addressed to me. Oh, I've held on to the words, written in this card, as God continues to fill me with even more of His perfect peace and unspeakable joy. I've released even more hurt and discouragement to Him that I didn't realize I was still carrying. I've shed tears that have continued to bring healing my way. God spoke to this person to send me this... they obeyed... they took the time to cover the card completely from front, inside, back, and the envelope with God's precious words, comforting promises, and scripture... and God made sure it arrived right on time... the very next day after the enemy tried to knock me off my feet. I'm thankful for the precious love of God that I've felt after receiving this card. I'm thankful for His perfect peace. I'm thankful for His strength that He gives me to push through the tough and long days. I'm thankful for His grace and mercy. I'm thankful that He guides me on when to speak and when not too, and just exactly how something should be said. I'm thankful He spoke to the precious soul who was obedient to send me this. He's truly an on time God; this is more than just a card... this is God's way of still communicating with His child when the enemy's lies are trying to drown out His still small voice! ♡